A semi-poem I wrote in 2007

My soul longs for everything that is you,
and yet, my reflection never changes.
My passions burn stronger,
 and yet, my actions remain the same.
I have become unintelligent in my walk...
repeating the same steps hoping for a different outcome.
But with a fresh perspective and a fresh breath you show me,
once again, how to make it change.
Consume me!
Flood me!
Stir me!
Flow out of me!
In all things let me be JUST like You!
A heart for the lost;
A longing to see the sick healed;
A passion for deliverance;
A desire to see Your bride live;
and a burning for your word to go forth into all nations.
Let these things be the push that I need...
Let it be, Oh Lord, let it be!

Birthday and Freedom Summit

Well I would have to say this birthday was definitely not one like I've ever had before! For the most part I enjoy my birthday... I forgot how much I enjoy working for a conference!! Stirred up my love for people and the tiny bit of compassion (I am working on growing ok!! lol) I have in my heart! I did the registration with Sette and several others... was a lot of fun to have people come in grumpy and frowning and making them smile and laugh!!!

I also got an awesome surprise from Shig on my bday!!! My sister comes running in my room with this beautiful vase with yellow roses in it and says, "who the h sent you flowers?" hahaha I said, "oh trust me, it wasn't a boy!" lol The roses are so pretty and go perfect in my bright yellow room!!!

So after the conference on Friday night a few of us went to Chilli's for some food (reminded me of the good ole times in Cleveland when it was either Chilli's or Applebees... to this day I will not go back to applebees hahaha)! We finished eating and my friend had told them it was my birthday and so they came out with a chocolate molten cake for me which was absolutely delicious!!! And that was how I end my actual birthday, but next Friday we are having a party at a restaurant and then maybe a few of us will go dancing? who knows! lol

Well I am looking forward to church in the morning but my poor feet are throbbing from standing for 12 hours today so I hope they feel better before the morning!!!

:)

My birth week...

Listening to Stacie Orrico while I type this out... her voice tends to calm me down! haha

I desperately despise living with someone who will not pull their share around the house. I completely don't mind picking up after my mom and helping out around the house (especially vacuuming... sooo relaxing!!) but I HATE having to clean up after a grown adult who just sits around lazily when she's home! That is my annoyed note for the day! haha

So this is my birthday week but thus far it has not been to filled with celebration. My grandma fell and broke her hip on Saturday night and so we ended up having to drive back and forth from there (an hour away from where we live.) because they did surgery and she hasn't been doing well at all. However, when we got there Sunday to talk to her I told her that she was having surgery and she was all doped up and crazy from meds and so I said they were giving her boob implants! hahaha she asked why!!! lol So then as we were getting ready to leave I asked her if she'd rather have boob implants or a sex change and she looked at me with big ole eyes and said NO! lol Too funny!!!

Friday is my birthday! Usually I celebrate on my birthday as well as a couple of other times but this year I am going to be at a conference on my birthday so my fam and I are going to Cheesecake Factory on Thursday and then next week all of my friends and fam are invited to go to The Old Spaghetti Factory and I am pretty excited about that! I am pretty excited about the conference on Friday too... Condoleezza Rice is a speaker as well as some other folks and then Sara Groves is doing a concert!! The conference is about sex slavery in America. Should be really interesting and informative! :)


Well I am really filled with joy from the Lord! Because even in the midst of all this chaos and such the Lord has kept my attention and He is teaching me how to listen even when my mind is going 500 miles an hour!! Grateful to be where I am today as I enter into my 24th year. And I am BEYOND excited to see where I will be next year at this time!!! :)

Bay Fusion

On Tuesday, January 11, 2011 we had the official launch of Bay Fusion (which is a young adults ministry). I went to the soft launch in December and even before I got to the service I just felt a connection with the ministry... there was an excitement in my heart for it. I remember walking in and just feeling at home like it was where I was supposed to be! So the week before the official launch I went to the leadership meeting to help plan stuff out and even there the Lord was really stirring up an excitement and joy in my heart to be apart of the ministry. I began praying for it and for the leadership and for the people who would come to the official launch on Tuesday. I got to the service early for prayer and I remember being in the prayer room and literally feeling like fire was being stirred in my gut! When I walked out the WHOLE room was full of people!!! I almost cried... I choked up like 3 times out of excitement and joy!!! I remember seeing people I hadn't seen in a long time and not being able to hold a conversation with them because I just kept saying I'm so glad you're here! haha It was an amazing service and the speaker was SPECTACULAR! I cannot wait to see what the Lord has in store for next month!!!


Anyone have any suggestions I could pass on for young adults ministries?? We had 100 people at the soft launch and Tuesday, at the official launch, we had over 200 people!!! We are probably going to double that in no time!! So any suggestions of ways to get people in or activities to do or to raise money please give 'em!!! Every word of wisdom or advice helps!

French Toast

You know those days when alarm doesn't go off and you jump up out of a dead sleep and you just KNOW you're late... well that didn't happen today but I did get that feeling when I woke up today. Not sure why but because of it my stomach started hurting. So I am sitting in bed, just sitting, trying to figure out my next move for the day (I really didn't have anything to do but to fix dinner haha) and all of a sudden my dogs start going CRAZYYYY... at first I thought we were about to have another earth quake until I hear a *bang bang bang* on my wall that is in the front of the house (that wall is actually a garage door on the outside and a wall on the inside because my room is a converted garage haha). Well after being freaked for a second I remembered that I had told Sette that if she came over and knocked on the door and no one answered to bang on the garage door because I can literally hear NOTHING from inside my room. Plus she doesn't have a phone right now. SO then I got super super excited and went to let her in, forgetting altogether about my stomach ache. She comes in and says she wants to make me french toast for breakfast and then I got EVEN more excited!!!! Well as I am bending down to get the eggs out of the fridge for her I am reminded as to why I was just laying in bed! haha After all is said in done we ended up going in my room and I TRIED really hard to eat but my gut just wasn't having it lol.

on to a COMPLETELY unrelated subject...
 Ever since the beginning of the year I have had this expectancy in my heart for 2011... I mean it couldn't be the fact that the Lord keeps confirming that this year is a year of the favor of the Lord through almost EVERY sermon, message, conversation I have had recently haha. But I know I went in to 2011 with a heart full of faith and trust in the Lord. I went in with a heart of thanksgiving for everything that has happened and all the things that haven't even happened yet! And ever since then the Lord has been throwing doors open for interviews for jobs and for ministry. It's taken me almost 2 years to get to this point where I am wanting and ready to be DOING ministry again. And all that to say that the launch of one of the ministries (Bay Fusion) the Lord has brought me to is tomorrow and my heart just is filled with glee!!!! Be praying for this ministry... it is a ministry for young adults and it is a really lacking area out here in Cali. I am excited to see MY generation catch the fire of the Lord under butts and change this world!! :)

ALSO, be praying for me! I think I may have a thyroid problem! I don't have insurance but if I get a job I will be able to be added back on to my mom's insurance and get it taken care of... it's no fun walking around not feeling 100%... or to bypass all that be praying the Lord would heal me!! :-D

yay 2011!!!!!!!

2011 Here we are...

Man, I have never had so much anticipation going into a new year as I do this year! The Lord has been making promises an throwing the doors wide open!! Ministry opportunities are being presented, job interviews have been coming left and right and I am getting healthy!! I love 2011!!! haha

Just a little shout out to the Shigster... she sent me an awesome present!! It fit me and my room perfectly!! (see pic, it's the jewelery tree)

My bff and I had started discussing what we were feeling for 2011 probably back int he beginning of December of 2010. And as we got closer and close and closer to this new year it became pretty humorous to hear all the confirmations and all the people whom the Lord was telling the same things to! This is the year of the Lord's favor! This year is one where the Lord is going to provide and bring to fruition promises! We are coming out of a season of dry and dead things into a season of fruit and live things. I am so excited for "what is to come" part of this year!


OMG I just remembered an awesome Christmas time story. So while Shannon and I were living together she was gone for a weekend (I think she went to ramp or something and I couldn't go) so Michelle and Lydia came over and helped me decorate the house. I put up a small fake tree and some lights and other random decor. Here comes Shannon stomping in the house early on a Monday morning (like 3 am or something) and all I hear is what the ..... ???? She didn't like it? Not only that but she was mad at me for decorating!!! UGHHH that started a war! She should have been happy I was willing to do it all and didn't make her happy... but NO instead she was mad! hahaha... oh the joys of Shig and I living together!!!

Keep a checking back because I will def have updates of what the Lord is doing throughout this year!!! :)